did they scrape you off the bottom did they put you in a box did they tell you what was ugly I hope they told you that you're not, trust me or did they say that you shouldn't did they say that it might hurt I'd never say that it wouldn't but only fire ain't afraid of getting burnt and did they tell you moments later when you're charred remains and dirt life grows like a weed if you're lucky every new seed takes some work it seems with sex the best you can expects a birth but it will never be your own, you get a single chance at earth burning fuel you never earned time can't heal the homes you've burned there is no wind which does not turn apologies are lessons learned can't look fire in it's eyes less it's burning you alive death is never comprehended what is life once it has ended I'll recall the memories the passive latent energies of every story yet untold but every episodes a hope that we'll go on forever or at least our friends remember selfless acts and useless facts inhabit presence, think, react --- well I will sink like a stone that's got a little spin make another home and learn to begin just need a little flick so could you be that friend you're gonna make me blush - I'm gonna let you in and you should be afraid 'cause I don't understand all of the things you say or how to be a man but that's if you expect a word to mean I am you as the other sex, but I'll be what I can --- they took us into separate rooms to teach us secret body rules don’t know yourself, go to school, as if we have an answer to this question, not just learning tools the boss says we might have to use we’re teaching kids their bodies too, you’ve got your own it’s up to you see, what you got to ask yourself is nothin’ you’d ask someone else who’s phrasing questions, how’s their health, who needs answers, who needs help? one of thems a child who was loved but never knew their wealth another ones right now, at heavens gates with dreams of hell am I the one who's smiling as if it mattered, true I lost the patterns of my being for two years I wandered you and we've been learning to beguile what was child, what was blue and black and bloody inside too nobody style, nameless cool how many stories can this old sun take far too many grim and gory that I know she'd hate life is just not a game, the ship is sinking, that's ok and if you're stumbling over moms and kids I think you're making a mistake leak into a universe, a lethal patriarchal curse the show is on, it's been rehearsed, it's accidental, we're absurd look into the mirror, what you see is not your self whatever's good, that's what I call mental health there is no path or purpose getting through the flesh don't hurt this bad but then who's fighting who? who's winning? can't be both of you I'm grinning when I see your name I don't know why, I'm just my brain feelings never work the same we're time itself, let's take the blame --- (don't run away) I'll tell you what - I think there's reasons you should really want to die and here's the 'but' - they never told you one good reason you should try you've got a heart and while it's beating you've been caught up asking why yeah that's a question from the heavens, guess you heard about the sky it's just a word, for upwards in the daytime nothing special 'bout the birds 'cept sky for us is something they climb dream of cages, what's a brain? so you want to runaway, fine there's a place for you in hell, it's about 20 years from now then it's today soon enough these rocks will shift and no one will know ever if we laughed or if we cried, or if we told our friends before we died 'all there is and ever was will always always turn to dust but don't get sad and don't get mad 'cause all I've ever been is glad to live with and among you guys, to speak the truth and tell you lies the privilege was to be 'cause when you are: you live, you love, you see' or you could hope they knew it too, these silent secrets help us few to feel we made it through, and if you want to, I would want you --- how tightly can I hold your torso before I start to scare you which lifetime did you ask me to forget 'cause the last time that you said 'let go' was before you said you want me to so darlin' let's hear those words again and could you feel it like the last time could you feel it like I felt it when I was in line could you feel it like I feel it when you never try neither didn't care you know that we were fine and when you say I didn't I say didn't I

hey what's interesting to you a plague, a flood, the morbid truth sacred flesh and razor tooth we eat the earth - pollute it too omnipotence can't stop us we're aware just fucking thoughtless knowledge feeds invasive stress fateless death and time's duress brainstem wants and egos fence please drop the swords and ditch the vest dreams of pleasure infinitum drastic measures, silent outcome yell to heard your own voice - screaming jump to prove your own choice - meaning you can see us where you are tell me friend where are you, far away and not coming back for days I'm not angry anyway remember time before your birth before the pain before the earth remember anything worth running to we're cursed so we are coming too but not with you, we're growing still it's far too soon and geriatric wards are rooms where bitter rest meets peaceful doom god is hate and you are love god is safety far above a band-aid, but you're spurting blood your face is pale just don't give up --- removal of space perceived disillusion of boundary fusion of roles and reality vulnerability to reaction sensitization to outcome divergence from expectation the possibility of loss or degradation be here, with me children of fear never learn to see breathe air, worry free and I've been thinking dear, I've been thinking we could be conspire, creativity we're both a body near another source of gravity find where, our minds meet then just leave it there, new potential energy